I am a poetic prose investigator.
Sent to investigate the somatic self, the guttural feelings that arise in response to emotions.
Where do the emotions arise in the body? Where do the emotions begin/end? Emotions are the entrance into my work, capturing a moment that reveals loss, contemplation, anger, passion, and eroticism just to name a few. These emotional moments are threaded together to form one stream of consciousness, and one voice. I am inspired to write my narratives about the stories and intersections of my past. How my past blends into my present and who I am at the current moment. Most of these stories come to life through the commonality and fusing together of my emotions. With my stories I crave to penetrate the core of emotions not just within myself but humanity as a whole in order to study one’s true self through the use of the written word/world.
I explore the themes of Black American identity, religion, the duality of relationships, love, the uncomfortable erotic, the space in between, home, and the merging together of the spirit, dream, and realistic worlds. How do these themes shape and shift our human nature? Do they? How are these worlds expressed in the written world? When addressing the human condition, I am invested in human consciousness as a constant condition and present positionality. As humans we are always dealing with and unpacking our emotions. I think about an experience past, or present that I have a somatic connection with/to. I write one line that I remember, feels capturing of that feeling, or someone said in the experience. Where do these triggers take us? What as humans do we refuse to connect with? What are we too afraid to unpack to/for ourselves?
I create my narratives for three main reasons. First, healing that supersedes isms: I want my work to appeal and be universally read by everyone regardless of race, class, gender, sexuality, age or culture because they are common stories of people experiencing emotion. I am exploring and grappling with many emotions that hopefully readers can feel and relate to. Second is the documentation of my own personal growth. When writing I am speaking from my own experiences and this acts as a form of healing. Third is the understanding of a human condition. Emotions change shape and form as we develop. Emotions are universal dialogues. How are they shifted from our experiences? Which emotions are common conversations? Which are not?
Currently I am working on my first poetic prose book, Black and Blueprints, accounting a hodgepodge of relationships with self, place, time, spirit, sex, emotion, and race, mainly presented in chunks of charged poetic prose.
Photo by Andrew Rodriguez